I just read these words after a panic attack:
And then I flicked off the computer screen.
No shit, the battle is in my mind, and it is allllllllllllll the tiiiiiiiiiiiime! And during the attack, control is such a foreign word, it almost doesn't sound like a language I speak.
So while the author may know this to be true, and maybe it actually is, I would like to invite them in to my brain for just a nano second so they could understand how these words...
Just. Don't. Compute!